amaotonovel Chapter 199 Her Heart Has Never Been Opened to Him
Chapter 199 Her Heart Has Never Been Opened to Him
The long-accumulated cloud and rain over Shangzhou finally came down freely and without reservation, trapping Baili Haoxuan and his party, and also buying time for the Beitang army that was escaping Xiaoguan, buying time to save their lives.
Even though it was raining heavily, Beitang Yuan did not stop moving forward. The mountain road was difficult to walk on. To reach Xiaoguan, one had to cross the natural barrier - Xiaoshan, before reaching Xiaoguan.
It was raining and the roads were slippery, making it difficult to move forward, but they had to face the challenge. If they stopped, they would be caught up and killed, but compared to losing their lives, these were nothing.
The mountain road was narrow, so Beitang Yuan had to abandon his horse and pick up the unconscious Yun Jingman, climbing the mountain step by step. He used his cloak to shield Yun Jingman from the pouring rain, and lowered his eyes to look at Yun Jingman who was sleeping in his arms. He felt a sense of guilt and helplessness in his heart.
If she hadn't been so unwilling to leave, he wouldn't have knocked her out. Even though she was already beside him, he still felt uneasy because he knew her heart wasn't with him.
Even though he is obsessed, he can always see the truth. He has always been a very rational person.
A cloak could not block the torrential rain, which still seeped in drop by drop, wetting Yun Jingman's skin.
Yun Jingman felt uncomfortable while in his sleep, his brows were tightly furrowed, his lips kept moving and he was mumbling, his eyes were hazy and he tried hard to open them. He felt waves of pain in the back of his neck, which spread to his head and his head was in severe pain.
My body was shaking and all the bones were screaming in pain.
Raindrops as big as beans sprinkled on my face. I opened my eyes uncomfortably, and the water slid into my eyes through my eyelids, stinging them.
Through the rain, he saw Beitang Yuan's jaw. He slowly said, "Where is this?" His mind was still not very clear, and he didn't know what was going on.
Hearing the stammering sound, Beitang Yuan lowered his eyes and saw that Yun Jingman had woken up.
"you're awake."
"Where is this? I'm not in..." Yun Jingman tried hard to recall what happened before, but every time she thought about it, her head felt like a thread was being pulled.
"Stop! Rest here." Beitang Yuan made a gesture, calling on the army to stop and set up camp to rest here.
The soldiers looked at each other, but they had to obey the general's order and went to rest under the big tree.
Beitang Yuan braved the rain and carried Yun Jingman under a thick and leafy tree. Although the rain was still dripping, it was able to block some of it.
He put Yun Jingman down, let her sit against the tree trunk, and gently brushed the rain off her face.
"Are you thirsty? Do you want some water? Are you hungry? Do you want some dry food?" Beitang Yuan asked with concern, pushing away the wet hair on Yun Jingman's forehead one by one.
Yun Jingman dodged Beitang Yuan's hand that was trying to play with her hair, looking uncomfortable. Beitang Yuan had no choice but to withdraw his hand awkwardly, curling his lips helplessly and smiling.
Her heart had never been open to him. If it wasn't for dealing with Baili Haoxuan, would there be no possibility of their ever meeting each other?
It hurts when I think about this.
Yun Jingman rubbed his temples, pressing the throbbing veins, and his mind gradually became clear. Everything that happened before slowly came back to him.
"Have you abandoned them all?" Yun Jing stared at Beitang Yuan with his watery eyes and asked coldly.
"Necessary sacrifices are needed. Only by sacrificing one's own interests can we achieve the greater good." Beitang Yuan avoided Yun Jingman's sharp, questioning gaze and said lightly.
"If we all leave, they will die, you know that!" Yun Jingman shouted angrily. The soldiers who were resting nearby cast their eyes towards Yun Jingman, but Beitang Yuan glared at them.
"They deserved to die!" Beitang Yuan said without any emotion.
"Sure enough, you are all the same, all the same!!!" They treat human life as nothing and as worthless.
"No, I have to go back. I have to go back." Yun Jingman said to himself.
Beitang Yuan pinched her shoulders, pressing her not to move, and shouted, "The Xuanhuang army is marching towards us. If you go back, aren't you just waiting to die?"
"Don't bother me, go away!" Yun Jingman shook off Beitang Yuan's hand and pushed him to the ground when he was not paying attention.
She stood up and took a few steps before her feet began to float and she was about to fall. Beitang Yuan quickly caught her body as she was about to fall.
Yun Jingman, who had not eaten for a whole day and night and had been busy with the operation, now had no strength left and could only collapse in Beitang Yuan's arms.
"Look at you, you can't even protect yourself, yet you still care about other people." Beitang Yuan was angry, indignant, distressed, sympathetic, and pitiful. These emotions were mixed together and were complicated and difficult to distinguish.
"Take me back, I can't just stand by and watch someone die. I can't..." Yun Jingman begged bitterly.
"I heard their calls, I heard their cries for help, I just wanted to reach out and save them. Just like that day, if someone heard my calls, heard my cries for help, and reached out and saved my child..." A drop of bitter and astringent tears dripped from the corner of his eye, mixing with the rain, making it hard to tell whether it was rain or tears.
How nice it is to cry in the rain, no one knows that those are fragile tears.
However, Beitang Yuan knew that he could feel the deep sadness emanating from her.
It turns out that the child is her pain, an indelible pain.
"But you have to take care of yourself before you can save them, right?" Beitang's tone softened. He was really helpless with Yun Jingman and didn't know how to treat her.
"You promise to take me back?" Yun Jingman asked cautiously.
"Yes. The prerequisite is that you must eat, sleep and get a good rest." Looking at the dark circles under her eyes, his heart ached a little more.
"No, there's not that much time." Yun Jingman shook her head and refused. If she fell asleep, God knows how deep she would sleep.
"But you have to eat, and you have to wait until dark before you can go. Do you want to be captured by the Xuanhuang army in broad daylight?"
"Yeah." Yun Jingman nodded gently.
He thought he should understand what these four words "putting oneself in danger" meant!
How blind can love make people? They are so blind that they are willing to sacrifice their lives for it, so blind that they can forget the deep hatred, so blind that they can give up what is within their reach, and so blind that they can automatically deliver themselves to be killed by the enemy.
It seemed that everything was so insignificant in front of Yun Jingman, but she rejected the heart that wanted to get close to her...